That moment when you wake up in the morning and your first thought is Jesus.
That moment when you're crying in your car because you feel his presence.
Yeah, that was me today. I had this interesting dream with Jesus last night. I've never dreamt with him before. It was a weird dream, out of place really, but it was sweet and gentle and I wish I could fall back asleep and relive it. In my dream, I was spending an entire day with Jesus. He wasn't a spiritual Jesus, he was man. He was dressed in jeans and a button down and he sat and spoke to me. He had shoulder length brown hair and a beard but I didn't REALLY see his face. He was taking care of my daughter for me while I did something. I don't even know what I was doing that I wasn't with my daughter but Jesus was caring for her. In the dream, I called my grandmother's house and asked for Jesus because thats where he was taking care of my baby. He told me she was ok. It then skips and Jesus is in my car with me. We're talking and I'm trying to give him excuses. Excuses on why I wasn't taking care of my daughter. Only I wasn't really giving him excuses. I would just tell him.."Well you know!" He smiled, looked at me, and told me that he still wanted to hear why. He wasn't being mean or anything. It was like he genuinely wanted to hear what I had to say. I proceeded to give him excuse after excuse. He just smiled, nodded and just said "uh huh" to everything I said. In the end we just laughed. Jesus made it clear, without saying much, that I had no excuses. Then I woke up.
I don't know if the dream means something. I don't know if I'm supposed to wake up with some epiphany or some secret knowledge. Maybe I just went to bed a little too full last night. I don't know. All I know is that I saw my Lord in a dream, and he emanated peace and gentleness. I trusted him completely when it came to my daughter and had peace in my heart when he told me she was ok. I knew she was because she was being cared for by him. I was happy when I was with him, he understood me and knew me. He listened to me. He was genuine. And without speaking to me, he made me realize my errors. He can just do that in you. Convict you of your actions without saying a word.
That dream has altered my day. I'm driving to school and I'm tearing because I swear I feel him sitting next to me just like in the dream. Jesus has altered my entire existence and makes me want to keep searching and keep pursuing him. It's important for me to feel that way every day. I want to know he's sitting with me always. I want to know he understands me and that everything will be ok when I put my entire family in his hands. To know I can trust him implicitly.
Jesus....the center of it all. And that's how I like it. ;)
